Two weeks left!!!!

Two more weeks! I am soooo looking forward to being a stay at home mome. The only downfall is I will miss my coworkers/family. I love them, even when they piss me off. Someone always manages to make me smile! Over this past year and a half, I have grown to love each and everyone of them, respect them, and appreciate them. Its a bummer, but then I see what I am gaining. A brighter and more conditioning life with my amazing daughter! I am looking forward to teaching her all about our world and I want her to learn sign language (along with teaching myself too!) I mean I missed her 1st (assisted) steps, the first time she crawled, and the first time she sat along. I am done missing things. She is growing too fast and soon, it will be all gone... Plus I want to have another baby. I want two so they can play together and love eachother. (and give me some time to learn to sew!!!) I guess I am being selfish, but since I am able to have and care for children, I want to. Eric doesn't, at least not yet, but I don't want to be 30 years old with a two year old. But I guess if it ends up like that, so be it...

Well, I guess thats all for today. Time for a picture of Kenna and her new fancy teeth!

& off she goes again

So Kenna is officially mobile! She can crawl, and almost walk! At 7 months, thats crazy! If she holds your fingers and stand over her, off she will go! So maybe its not as exciting as I would like to think, but it can be to me.

So my last official day of work is August 10th now. I am very excited. With my sister starting softball, I don't really have a choice...But I guess I didn't anyway. $190 per week for daycare is stupid. I'm sorry, but seriously?? What the hell are they teaching my 7 month old that costs $190 a week? Apparently her teacher must have gone to some fucking brilliant baby college that we have yet to hear about..

Anyway, I guess its time to finish here because Kenna is not attacking the power cord for my laptop...
TTFN!!!

&& time to move again...

So some pretty exciting/depressing news. I get to be a stay at home mom starting August 1st. Its great and everything because its what I have wanted to do ever since I found out I was pregnant. The only thing that sucks is we are going to move back to my parents house, not because we can't afford being on our own. We could make sacrifices and do it, no problem. But our landlord will NOT help with the flea problem in our house. We first thought it was our cats and they had snuck out and brought them it. So the cats went outside and we bug bombed the house. Well, we walked back in and they were gone. Two hours later, guess what I see? Flea's all over me and Eric. I was pissed! So off we went to ask our landlord to help. His words were, "No thats not myt problem, it was probably your cats." So I said no, they are coming up from under our house, its your responsibility to help us out. We pay our rent and we never cause any problems. Who repaired the bathroom you never fixed? We did. Who put in the tile in the kitchen and our room because the carpet smelled like god piss? I did, when I was pregnant! So we told him we would be moved out by the end of the month, and since we cannot live in we will not pay a full month rent. Its his fault for not helping, and I will not pay for an exterminator to come out and use even more harsh chemicals. I just won't do it. So we will be at my mom's again, until Spring probably, so we can save up our money and buy the house we want. I am so excited.

And just so I am being clear, I do love my parents, but there, I can't walk around naked.. Its pretty much my only problem... =]

Well, thats my rant for the moment.
I shall be back later to add some pictures..

Digi Scrapbooking!

So, for Christmas, Eric bought me a scrapbooking program for my computer. I started physically scrapbooking when I got pregnant, but this is MUCH neater, literally! I just found a group on Cafemom (another obsession) that I am trying to become an admin for. I deeply enjoy digi scrap booking and I think I am doing pretty freakin good! Here, you tell me!

Well Kenna woke up.. I shall write later..

The life of a Friday

So our amazing friends from New York have now left, hence why I have not been online in about a week now. Its kind of bittersweet. Its nice because I have my bed and kitties back, sad because we will deeply miss them. We were staying at my parents for the week since we live about 45 minutes from the house and it made no sense to drive from our house to their's 4 times a day. So when we got home last night, guess who was there to greet us? Littlefoot and Patches.

Here is patches with her "I'm pissed" look.

& Littlefoot about to attack my flip flops... again.

(Thanks Kelly for the idea to also add my other children to my blog!)

And some other news, Kenna is 7 months old today.. That is another bittersweet moment. My little baby is growing up too fast!

Well, I guess i'm done here for a little. I am sitting at The Outback with my dad and I think its time to go browse Cafemom for a little!

Learning a new life..=]

Hello everyone. I guess this is where I tell you about myself and family. I am a 19 year old Mom from Missouri. I have a 6 month old daughter named Kenna, and an amazing fiancé named Eric. Those two are my everything. I was born in Vermont and my daughter here. Eric was born in Hawaii, but is anything but! I graduated high school when last May when I was 8 weeks pregnant. About a week later we told our families. It was kind of hard to because in January (the day before my 18th birthday) I miscarried (what I believe was a little boy). They understood and were there for us, but still. And since this is MY blog and I can write whatever I want, I will explain that NO I was NOT one of the teenage girls who PLANNED on getting pregnant. I was on birth control and all that fancy stuff. I have asthma and I took my inhaler, which is a steroid. Steroids counteract birth control, & I was one who never was told anything about that. So BAM here is this beautiful bundle of scary lying in my arms at 1am December 11th, 2009.




Onto Kenna’s story. Kenna was born at 11:31pm 12/10/09. I went into labor with her at 9:13 that morning. I felt nothing different, but when I woke up I felt a pop as she kicked my bladder. I just thought I pissed my pants.. I was wrong. So off to the hospital I went.



Once I got there, everything that could go wrong, did. We lost her heartbeat many times. I tried to go without pain medication so I used a birthing ball. Then no heartbeat again. So onto the bed for me. But still, no contractions, no pain, nothing… Until the hips started to spread and I was stressing out…Then I thought I was dying.. So here came the epidural. I am terrified of needles, but man was it nice for the pain to just disappear…



So finally after 14 hours of labor my doctor came in and asked “So, are you ready to push?” & then reality hit. So after 31 minutes of pushing this tiny little thing (they planned on an 8 ½ pound baby) came out, and silence… She wasn’t breathing or crying. Eric cut her cord and off she went. It was the longest two minutes of my life, then WAAAAAA!! She had fluid in her lungs and her oxygen was low, so I never got to see her until she was about an hour and a half old.



So its July first, which means in less than 6 months and Kenna turns 1 year old.. Its kind of exciting, yet oddly terrifying. She is crawling, laughing, and has two teeth! Where did my tiny little 6.6 pound baby girl go? Some days are easier than others though..



Well that’s all for tonight..