Tuesday, October 5, 2010


So it has been quite a while since I have last written. So many things have happened over that time. I guess I have just been so busy I almost forgot about my blog! So I may not have anyone read it, but that’s okay as well. Eric and I are finally getting married November 6th of this year! I am overly excited and frugally budgeting everything! I received my wedding gown for free, my maid of honor dress for free, and many of my decorations (including Kenna’s flower girl dress) for very little money! I love having great family and friends. I am also making my own corsages and bouquets. I feel very crafty and am actually enjoying it! My favorite part is coming up though! I am making my wedding cake AND re-doing my dress back. It zips up and, well to put it nicely for myself, I am too big boned for it! =] So my mom and I are going to pull out my zipper and hem it. Then we are going to make it a corset back so I can breathe and sit down! All in all I am very pleased with the look of our wedding. Of course I will have photographs up after.

Another amazing moment in my life was Monday when Eric and I signed the lease to our new house. It may be a mobile home (trailer around here!) but it is out home and I am very excited to have it. Moving into this house though will push my coupon clipping, discount buying, staying home WAY more than normal, living. Not going into detail about our earnings, but living here leaves us with less than $50 in saving money. (Or money for diapers when I can’t get my amazon diapers for $23!)

So all in all many things have gone on over the past month. Kenna doesn’t worm crawl anymore... She has 4 teeth now! & Eric and I are finally becoming the family we want to be. So until next time, here are a few photos until I get the wedding photos and house photos!

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Half Baked

Okay so I just finished reading Half Baked by Alexa Stevenson, and I am not going to lie, it was AMAZING. I cried, laughed, and had horrid dreams that made me wake out of a deep sleep and have Eric reassure me I was not pregnant with quadruplets. But I loved this book. The way Alexa pulls you in to believe you are walking beside her throughout the entire ordeal, it perfect. I saw the dark hallways and the big machines, even though I have no idea what THE OSCILLATOR looks like. I smelt the sanitary smell a hospital gives everytime she entered it. I was there when she bathed Simone, held her, and laughed when Simone licked the cat. (Kenna did that the other day and all I could do was giggle at her obsession with this creature! =]) And I guess I may be slow, or just didn't realize exactally how I was, but even though Eric and I had no problem concieving Kenna, I felt like her for most of my pregnancy. After miscarring our little man (? not sure because "he" was only 4.5 weeks when I lost "him"), then concieving Kenna 6 weeks later, I was terrified about every stomach twinge, every time I laughed too hard and my stomach hurt, everytime someone touched me and I jumped. She brought out every fear I had, and to be honest, I never really had anything to fear. So, even though no one reads this, go buy her book. I am not kidding you. If you have children, if you don't, its amazing and I throughly enjoyed each and every word in it.

(Yes, this is me with the book! See, you should go get it now! =])

Sunday, August 22, 2010


Sooo since I have been unable to figure out my sewing machine, I have taken up crocheting! (At least until I figure out how to put the needle in the hole and find where the thread goes... yes I am pathetic..) I haven't crocheted since I was about 7 years old, so it was quite ackward holding a hook again.. Not to mention  could NOT remember how to start a second row of stiches.. So off to the "Yarn Diva" I go. My first problem, my hook was waaaay too small. 4.5mm will NOT work with this yarn. I needed a 6.5mm hook, so I bought a very pretty wooden one! The lady there told me they are having a crocheting for beginners class September 9th, so I am going to that, and then I found an amazing little library they have for all different techniques. Sewing, quilting, knitting, weaving, and crocheting. "Crocheting Basics" is NOT the book I recommend for new crocheters, but it does help if you can already make a slipknot and a starter chain. So now with this newfound skill, I am making a scarf! One for me, and then a mini one for Kenna.


Oh and for the reccord, I kicked Eric and Brianna's (little sister) asses at bowling! =] 144! (& no I am not a "rub it in their faces" kind of winner =], okay maybe I am! I never win at anything else!)

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Thursday: The day of rest!

So after throughly attacking her glow worm, Kenna is now asleep. I am very excited to be a stay at home mom with her, but to be honest, she is a little terror. My crawling, touching EVERYTHING, and selective listening child is, well, a mini version of me. I just can't believe I have missed this much to now notice how big and active she is. Well, I don't have much to say, assuming Kenna is going to wake up any minute... =]

So for now, here is a picture of her at 4 days old..


Saturday, August 7, 2010

Almost there!!

So in 3 days, I am officially a stay at home mom and Kenna will be 8 months old.. She is now 18.3 pounds and 27.3 inches tall! Over two feet!! I love how big she is getting, but it also makes me sad because she won't be little much longer. Each day its something new. Right now she is trying to put her ever present binky in her glow worm baby dolls mouth. She sits up alone and army crawls and if you hold her fingers she will walk! I love that she is becomming a independant little girl.

Eric and I are on our way to buying our own house! We are now saving every penny we get to buy a house. And a really nice part is that his parents are buying 16 acres of land and are letting us fence off an acre and letting us put a house on it! I am thrilled because we will be paying for it in CASH! I can't wait. =]

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Two weeks left!!!!

Two more weeks! I am soooo looking forward to being a stay at home mome. The only downfall is I will miss my coworkers/family. I love them, even when they piss me off. Someone always manages to make me smile! Over this past year and a half, I have grown to love each and everyone of them, respect them, and appreciate them. Its a bummer, but then I see what I am gaining. A brighter and more conditioning life with my amazing daughter! I am looking forward to teaching her all about our world and I want her to learn sign language (along with teaching myself too!) I mean I missed her 1st (assisted) steps, the first time she crawled, and the first time she sat along. I am done missing things. She is growing too fast and soon, it will be all gone... Plus I want to have another baby. I want two so they can play together and love eachother. (and give me some time to learn to sew!!!) I guess I am being selfish, but since I am able to have and care for children, I want to. Eric doesn't, at least not yet, but I don't want to be 30 years old with a two year old. But I guess if it ends up like that, so be it...

Well, I guess thats all for today. Time for a picture of Kenna and her new fancy teeth!

Saturday, July 17, 2010

& off she goes again

So Kenna is officially mobile! She can crawl, and almost walk! At 7 months, thats crazy! If she holds your fingers and stand over her, off she will go! So maybe its not as exciting as I would like to think, but it can be to me.

So my last official day of work is August 10th now. I am very excited. With my sister starting softball, I don't really have a choice...But I guess I didn't anyway. $190 per week for daycare is stupid. I'm sorry, but seriously?? What the hell are they teaching my 7 month old that costs $190 a week? Apparently her teacher must have gone to some fucking brilliant baby college that we have yet to hear about..

Anyway, I guess its time to finish here because Kenna is not attacking the power cord for my laptop...

Thursday, July 15, 2010

&& time to move again...

So some pretty exciting/depressing news. I get to be a stay at home mom starting August 1st. Its great and everything because its what I have wanted to do ever since I found out I was pregnant. The only thing that sucks is we are going to move back to my parents house, not because we can't afford being on our own. We could make sacrifices and do it, no problem. But our landlord will NOT help with the flea problem in our house. We first thought it was our cats and they had snuck out and brought them it. So the cats went outside and we bug bombed the house. Well, we walked back in and they were gone. Two hours later, guess what I see? Flea's all over me and Eric. I was pissed! So off we went to ask our landlord to help. His words were, "No thats not myt problem, it was probably your cats." So I said no, they are coming up from under our house, its your responsibility to help us out. We pay our rent and we never cause any problems. Who repaired the bathroom you never fixed? We did. Who put in the tile in the kitchen and our room because the carpet smelled like god piss? I did, when I was pregnant! So we told him we would be moved out by the end of the month, and since we cannot live in we will not pay a full month rent. Its his fault for not helping, and I will not pay for an exterminator to come out and use even more harsh chemicals. I just won't do it. So we will be at my mom's again, until Spring probably, so we can save up our money and buy the house we want. I am so excited.

And just so I am being clear, I do love my parents, but there, I can't walk around naked.. Its pretty much my only problem... =]

Well, thats my rant for the moment.
I shall be back later to add some pictures..

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Digi Scrapbooking!

So, for Christmas, Eric bought me a scrapbooking program for my computer. I started physically scrapbooking when I got pregnant, but this is MUCH neater, literally! I just found a group on Cafemom (another obsession) that I am trying to become an admin for. I deeply enjoy digi scrap booking and I think I am doing pretty freakin good! Here, you tell me!

Well Kenna woke up.. I shall write later..

Saturday, July 10, 2010

The life of a Friday

So our amazing friends from New York have now left, hence why I have not been online in about a week now. Its kind of bittersweet. Its nice because I have my bed and kitties back, sad because we will deeply miss them. We were staying at my parents for the week since we live about 45 minutes from the house and it made no sense to drive from our house to their's 4 times a day. So when we got home last night, guess who was there to greet us? Littlefoot and Patches.
Here is patches with her "I'm pissed" look.
& Littlefoot about to attack my flip flops... again.

(Thanks Kelly for the idea to also add my other children to my blog!)

And some other news, Kenna is 7 months old today.. That is another bittersweet moment. My little baby is growing up too fast!
Well, I guess i'm done here for a little. I am sitting at The Outback with my dad and I think its time to go browse Cafemom for a little!

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Learning a new life..=]

Hello everyone. I guess this is where I tell you about myself and family. I am a 19 year old Mom from Missouri. I have a 6 month old daughter named Kenna, and an amazing fiancé named Eric. Those two are my everything. I was born in Vermont and my daughter here. Eric was born in Hawaii, but is anything but! I graduated high school when last May when I was 8 weeks pregnant. About a week later we told our families. It was kind of hard to because in January (the day before my 18th birthday) I miscarried (what I believe was a little boy). They understood and were there for us, but still. And since this is MY blog and I can write whatever I want, I will explain that NO I was NOT one of the teenage girls who PLANNED on getting pregnant. I was on birth control and all that fancy stuff. I have asthma and I took my inhaler, which is a steroid. Steroids counteract birth control, & I was one who never was told anything about that. So BAM here is this beautiful bundle of scary lying in my arms at 1am December 11th, 2009.

Onto Kenna’s story. Kenna was born at 11:31pm 12/10/09. I went into labor with her at 9:13 that morning. I felt nothing different, but when I woke up I felt a pop as she kicked my bladder. I just thought I pissed my pants.. I was wrong. So off to the hospital I went.

Once I got there, everything that could go wrong, did. We lost her heartbeat many times. I tried to go without pain medication so I used a birthing ball. Then no heartbeat again. So onto the bed for me. But still, no contractions, no pain, nothing… Until the hips started to spread and I was stressing out…Then I thought I was dying.. So here came the epidural. I am terrified of needles, but man was it nice for the pain to just disappear…

So finally after 14 hours of labor my doctor came in and asked “So, are you ready to push?” & then reality hit. So after 31 minutes of pushing this tiny little thing (they planned on an 8 ½ pound baby) came out, and silence… She wasn’t breathing or crying. Eric cut her cord and off she went. It was the longest two minutes of my life, then WAAAAAA!! She had fluid in her lungs and her oxygen was low, so I never got to see her until she was about an hour and a half old.

So its July first, which means in less than 6 months and Kenna turns 1 year old.. Its kind of exciting, yet oddly terrifying. She is crawling, laughing, and has two teeth! Where did my tiny little 6.6 pound baby girl go? Some days are easier than others though..

Well that’s all for tonight..